Feeling Annoying

Hey Guys :) Have you ever felt like you're super annoying? Do you feel like you're the last person that people want to talk to? Like people hate you because he or she read your previous blog?(tsk)

Well I gone through all of the above before. It's not the people who affect what you think, it's your self conscious. You! Don't care what people think of you, you shouldn't give your attention to anyone who doesn't deserve it. Pray to God about your insecurities, it always work its way out :) yes, I still have a lot to learn about, and i'm still growing spiritually, I may not be mature enough to tell you what to do, but God does and he knows everything about you, it might sound creepy at first, but it sounds kinda safe, don't ya think? That HE knows everything and HE knows YOU! I wished I knew HIM earlier but I only knew about him when I was 9 or 10 when I went to church with my cousins. Church was the happiest place I ever went to, that time. I always felt held back, that I couldn't accept Christ without my parents permission, and who knew that a year later, my mom started to know HIM too, I felt at ease when I found out, but it still boggles my mind when she didn't tell me about it until I found her Bible. At that moment when I found it, I knew that HE would make things work out in the end. I BELIEVED in HIM very strongly when I was younger, I don't know what happened but as I got older, I drifted away from HIM, I feel really bad, HE sent HIS son to die for our sins, and I'm just here feeling like I shouldn't be alive. I'm starting to realize that not everything is about me, there's other people that need help way much more than I do. I felt like a selfish spoiled brat. I guess I found out the hard way about it, I gone through a very difficult phase in '10 and '11, I drifted away and HE tried to get closer, but I kept pushing, and pushing. I pushed Him away so hard that, I thought it was the end of my humanity. This year, I can honestly say I'm getting a head start and I prayed to HIM yesterday and it felt pretty soothing knowing that His listening. So I try not to be insecure about myself, and I learnt that I cannot control my faith, you know what they say, if it's meant to be, it will be. That is true, GOD controls our faith and He makes it all happen. If you ever asked Him "why me? God do you hate me, why'd you make this happen to me?" well He makes mistakes for you, so that YOU can learn from them. Grow stronger with Him. Grow happy with HIM. Build a relationship with HIM. :)

-Krystal