I don't need anyone but God

I'm stressed out already about my studies...

My Exams are just getting closer to me each day and I am just terrified of how it will turn out.
Am I going to fail? Am I going to Pass or EVEN GET AN A? I am having insecurities about this every time my parents bug me about it. They just put a pile of stress on my desk and I haven't cleared it out yet.

I sometimes think That I have what it takes to be a smart girl, but then I went to school and get straight B's and C's and no A's. My parents are one of the reasons that I wanna prove to myself that I CAN do it. I remind myself every time that God gave me a life for a reason, and He has a plan for me. I just have to patient.


Then, there is the weight problem, You have no idea how MANY times people have called me FAT. Out of the few times I have been called Beautiful, I think :"Really, I'm Beautiful? People Call me fat, what do they see in me that hides all that thoughts that I am fat?" Only so little in my life has anyone called me fat, I mean, not even my own parents or family, for that matter, has called me beautiful. They all call me fat, like I don't acknowledge that I am slightly fatter than other normal 15 year olds.....I wish I just could DO something about it, whenever I wanna go exercise, I'm always stopped, like I'm not allowed to go to the gym, I'm too young, I can't go for a jog without you because it's too dangerous....I don't even know how to dodge all these obstacles....

My entire family, I am probably the only kid, like in my WHOLE family, they always think that I'm most likely to be the one ending up poor, fat and with no job...WHAT am I suppose to do about it?? My mind is blank every time i think about this, I have sleepless nights just THINKING about What to do. I know God loves me, and I don't need to hear anymore from the people who call me FAT. Only God can judge me.

-Krystal